You can be who you are
At 23,I moved to japan for work.
It is a very exciting thing for one had not been aborad.
Of couse,the most hard time is to learn a new language since you have to do .
I struggled to understand the words coming out of my colleagues’ mouths, struggled to keep up, and struggled to form any responses. Even when I barely understood and replied, they seldom got what I was saying.
It was very frustrating. It got more so when I started double, triple check the words I was using, and the grammar of every single sentence, to no avail. Even when I thought I said everything right, they still did not understand me.
Was it my non-Japan accent? Or was it that the Janpaness ability I was proud of simply wasn’t enough?
Then, I met people who understood me, people who’d help explaining what I said, and point out that it wasn’t me.
They said, actually, there was nothing wrong with my Japanese. They weren’t exceptionally good at guessing broken Janpanese. It was because the people who didn’t understand me had it in their mind that my Janpanese will not make sense, so it didn’t.
It was at that point, I started to see, it was probably not my problem most of the time.
There are just people who are convinced that I can’t do certain things because of the way I am. So even when I did them, they’d still find a way in their mind to reject or ignore the facts. They are not bad people, probably, it is just the way things are for them.
So, until I can prove myself again, again, and again, til they notice, or until there are other people who’d help convincing them, they will keep on rejecting me.
No, it was not you. What a nice thing to know.
Maybe you want to do something to appeal yourself.However,there is no one to notice you. for you are who you are.
So I stop gearing myself up for these pointless battles.
And I was relieved.
see tomorrow
dinghing
at 21:22